What can you do when a person does not want to feel better?

Well, "What's his name" and I had an argument last night about his computer use. It was bound to happen. The kids have been frustrated and I think feel alienated when he is showing that they are not a priority. He was going to help G3 with her homework. She was supposed to read to a parent and I thought it was really cool that he would be the one to listen this time. She started to read and he was "slaying a dragon" so he asked her to wait. I got quite angry because it was getting close to her bedtime. Again, it's more about showing that they are a priority than anything else. Anyway, I sat down to listen to her read so she could get her assignment done. After that, he sat down also. Finally I just said I was concerned about the message he was sending the kids. I think I also said something like "do you have any idea how much time you spend on this thing!?!?!" He responded with "I KNOW EXACTLY HOW MUCH TIME I SPEND ON THE COMPUTER!" The conversation sort disintegrated from there. I did tell him that it was bothering the kids and he said that they never mentioned it.....

The hard part is that if he moves, which would be emotionally ideal, I would not be able to make it financially as I don't think he would pay child support if he was out on his own.

There are moments lately that I really feel like I am reliving my marriage. I guess I could handle that but I do not want the kids to go through it again.

I don't think I am doing too well on my blog mission. I was going to do something every day to make my life better. I guess writing this out is helpful but I was hoping to make more progress.

Well, back to the secret:

I am so glad "What's his name" is no longer sleeping in my living room.
I am so glad "What's his name" is no longer sleeping in my living room.
I am so glad "What's his name" is no longer sleeping in my living room.
I am so glad "What's his name" is no longer sleeping in my living room.
I am so glad "What's his name" is no longer sleeping in my living room.
I am so glad "What's his name" is no longer sleeping in my living room.
I am so glad "What's his name" is no longer sleeping in my living room.
I am so glad "What's his name" is no longer sleeping in my living room.
I am so glad "What's his name" is no longer sleeping in my living room.

And:

I am very grateful all of my bills are paid
I am very grateful all of my bills are paid
I am very grateful all of my bills are paid
I am very grateful all of my bills are paid
I am very grateful all of my bills are paid
I am very grateful all of my bills are paid
I am very grateful all of my bills are paid
I am very grateful all of my bills are paid
I am very grateful all of my bills are paid
I am very grateful all of my bills are paid
I am very grateful all of my bills are paid
I am very grateful all of my bills are paid
I am very grateful all of my bills are paid
I am very grateful all of my bills are paid
I am very grateful all of my bills are paid



Let's see if that helps.